So this is the most confusing of all the days of Holy week. I for one am not really sure what exactly I’m supposed to be doing meditation wise today. Jesus is dead in the tomb. The people who were following him were full of confusion and lost hope. They were wondering if they were sold a bill of goods or what was going on. My guess is they didn’t really know what to do with themselves.
I guess that is one thing I can relate to. This COVID-19 thing has turned the world upside down. No one knows what to do, where to go, or even if they should go anywhere at all. There’s a real sense of confusion and loss of hope. Nothing seems to have prepared us for what we are dealing with at the moment.
There’s a meme kicking around today of a bunch of healthcare workers holding the body of Jesus. He’s dead in their arms. It’s unbelievably powerful. I find so much meaning to it but I will leave it to you to take from it what you will.
The world does seem dark right now. There seems to be a real fear and lack of hope. I have honestly felt at times today like I don’t know what to do. Should I read or write or sit outside or go for a walk or be quiet. I just really haven’t known.
Maybe that’s exactly how I should be feeling on Holy Saturday.
(Based on today’s gospel reading from John 19:38-42)
I am confused today. I don’t know which way is up. I don’t know what to do with myself. I’m finding it hard to know where to place my hope today.
There’s so much death.
So much despair.
So much sadness.
So much hopelessness.
What should I do today Lord?
Where do I place my hope?
Show me Lord.