Feeling sorry for myself

So I wrenched my neck. I wasn’t doing anything out of the ordinary. It was Valentine’s Day and Erinn and I were having dinner together. We were reminiscing about how we got engaged on this day more than 20 years ago now. I had cooked what I thought was the most amazing meal ever; barbecued chicken legs. Who wouldn’t want to marry me with this kind of offering, I thought:) Thankfully, she did say yes but I don’t think it was due to the chicken legs…

So it was just a casual evening eating takeout with Erinn in my apartment as I’m still not home yet and the roads were still too bad for my wheelchair to go anywhere else besides here. And all of a sudden my neck kinked. No good reason. Maybe I turned my head too quickly or something. But Since that time, two days ago now, I can’t really turn my head without some serious pain. That first night I barely slept. Then last night I slept better which implies that my neck is getting better but still today I am kind of fried.
I feel shitty.
And sorry for myself.
Isn’t there enough to deal with at the moment? I can’t seem to get home. The renovations are taking forever. I’m living in an apartment on the other side of a big city from my family; It’s been more than a year now since I have slept at home. I am stuck in a wheelchair living with multiple sclerosis. It’s -9 Celsius outside.

Isn’t that enough?

Lord,
Isn’t that enough?

2 thoughts on “Feeling sorry for myself”

  1. Julie says:

    Hey Dion, Why not read through the book of Job today. Now there is a life completely in turmoil. See God’s incredible love for Job and His incredible power manifested.

  2. Lucy Fensom says:

    Dear Dion,

    I do so always empathize with you, on so many levels and I will be praying for you for things to get easier and warmer very soon.
    For your neck, I suffer terribly with mine as I have arthritis and wrench every now and then, and I could not manage without occasional help from a chiropractor. I don’t know if you’ve ever tried this? A good and reputable one can really help you, there’s no need for you to feel another moment of neck pain once you will be on their hands.
    Take care and God bless you and your family in abundance.
    Lucy

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