well our time here is winding down. tonight we said farewell to a couple from our group by all getting together for cake. it’s that phase of our journey now when the people we’ve befriended are starting to leave to go home. we’re three sleeps away from our own departure ourselves and are ready to go home now. but the friendships that have been formed here amongst the folks that have flown here all the way from different parts of canada run deep as we have an understanding of what each other is going through in dealing with this disease. it’s bitter sweet to be winding this trip up.
and today i had two physio aqppointments as there will be no physio tomorrow or sunday. i’ve also befriended the two therapists these past two weeks as they have given us such great care. so i’m feeling very tired right now and am looking forward to crashing for the night. tomorrow will be a very long day as we rise at 7am and will be tourists again. we’re heading first to a boat that will take us inland where we will encounter monkeys and tons of crocodiles and watch a guy feed these things up close and personal.
then we head to a canopy ride accross the top of the rainforest for an hour. then we get to hang out at the beach on the pacific ocean for a couple of hours.
then we drive back and tomorrow night a group of us are heading back to the restaurant that is owned by the guy from toronto to watch the ufc fight. so i suspect by tomorrow night i’ll be far more exhausted than i currently am. but i really would regret not going to do the things we’re going to do tomorrow if we don’t do them. life’s to short to pass these things up.
i’m still feeling good. no major improvements today but that’s ok. time will tell the full tale so we will wait.
so for now i’ll end with thomas merton’s prayer that on this night is my own;
‘MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.’